A Field of Ostriches

Last night I dreamt that I saw a field of ostriches...

"To see an ostrich in your dream, suggests that you are not facing reality and living in a world of your own. You may be in denial or unwilling to accept a situation. Alternatively, the ostrich can symbolize truth and justice."

The Lesson of Growth

"Growth by nature is painful... you have to learn to let go and leave things behind."

When the pain is so real and the tears fall endlessly, I tell myself that I don't ever want to go through this again. I tell myself that I can't be defeated. If I give in now, I will have to go through this all over again...

A reason, a season, or a lifetime

"People come into your life for a reason, a season, or
a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you
will know what to do for each person."

Even though we are not together anymore, I still want you in my life...even as just a friend.

Understanding that...

"You can shape or carve a piece of rock to what you want it to be, but you can't change it's composition, what it's made of..."

If this is the right thing then why is it so difficult?

Love is a Choice

"Love is a choice, not a feeling.
Love is something we do, not something that happens to us.

Every moment is an opportunity to choose love.
The heartache begins when we choose to love and our love is rejected, misunderstood, or perhaps most painfully, not reciprocated.

You can only choose to love.
You cannot determine whether someone else will love you.
Love is a choice."

Older But Not Wiser

I may be older but I certainly don't feel wiser. Thinking about some of the mistakes that I've made recently, I wonder if I've learned anything at all...

Everybody's Broken - Bon Jovi

Step into the deep end,
Make yourself at home,
When you wonder why you're breathing,
Know you're not alone,
Its so hard to believe,
Its easier to doubt,
You're trying to hold in,
But you're dying to scream out.

It's ok, to be a little broken,
Everybody's broken, in this life,
It's ok, to feel a little broken,
Everybody's broken, you're alright,
Just keep on going,
It's just life.

"You don't want to spend half your life thinking about a chance you never took..."

Love or Be Loved?

"He who loves more in a relationship is the one that's not in control..."

To love or be loved? How do you continue to love someone if they don't love you back the same way?

If this is for the best, then why is it so difficult?

Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now

Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home...

I've been listening to this song for quite some time, but today for the first time I paid attention to the lyrics...

Umbrella - Rihanna

When the sun shines
We'll shine Together
Told you I'll be here forever
That I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella

You can run into my Arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
So Gonna let the rain pour I'll be all you need and more

"You deserve someone who both makes you happy and who doesn't complicate your life..."